On Sunday September 14 our minister could not make it to our service so I volunteered to assist Steve Parke by giving the sermon part of the program. Since I have friends and family who read this and could not attend, here it is in all by the paragraphs I read from a book. Enjoy and I hope you take something with you when you leave.
Lou
I THINK I SHOULD FIRST TELL YOU A BIT ABOUT
MYSELF, SO YOU CAN UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM. I WAS BORN LOUELLA BETH BARTHOLOMEW OCTOBER
1, 1941, TO RUEBEN AND CHRISTINE BARTHOLOMEW IN NICKERSON, KANSAS, POPULATION
1000 SOULS GIVE OR TAKE A FEW. WE WERE
SHARE CROPPERS WITH A MAN IN TOWN. I HAD
AN OLDER SISTER AND A BROTHER. SHORTLY
AFTER MY BIRTH WE WERE THROWN INTO WORLD WAR 2, BUT I DON’T REALLY THINK THAT
WAS MY FAULT! OVER THE NEXT 6 YEARS I
WAS BLESSED WITH 3 MORE SISTERS. POVERTY
WAS OUR LIFE, BUT BACK IN THOSE DAYS EVERYONE WAS POOR SO IT DID NOT
MATTER. BY THE TIME I ENTERED HIGH
SCHOOL, I BEGAN TO SEE THAT WHILE POVERTY WAS THE NORM, THERE WERE PEOPLE
ACTUALLY CLIMBING OUT OF POVERTY AND LIVING IN MUCH BETTER HOMES THAN WE
HAD. WE HAD NO RUNNING WATER OR
ELECTRICITY AND WE WERE OFTEN THE BRUNT OF JOKES. MY BROTHER ALTERED HIS BIRTH CERTIFICATE WHEN
HE WAS 16 TO MAKE HIM 18 AND OFF HE WENT TO THE ARMY, THEREBY ESCAPING THE
SHARE CROPPER LIFE.
I LIVED WITH
MY GRANDMOTHER AND GREAT GRANDMOTHER FOR A YEAR AND THAT WAS WHEN I LEARNED TO
CROCHET AND TO READ MY BIBLE. I WAS NOT
ALLOWED TO READ LIBRARY BOOKS, ONLY THE BIBLE.
MY REQUIRED BOOK REPORT WAS ON THE BIBLE. I WENT TO A CONGREGATIONAL CHURCH IN THE
LITTLE TOWN OF PLEVNA. I DO NOT THINK IT
WAS A UCC CHURCH, BUT IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN.
WE MOVED TO
HUTCHINSON, KANSAS, MY SENIOR YEAR AND I IMMEDIATELY DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL AND
RAN AWAY. I MARRIED A MAN I HAD KNOWN
FOR 3 WEEKS, HAD 5 KIDS IN RAPID SUCCESSION, DIVORCED, REMARRIED REPLAYED THAT
SCENARIO THREE TIMES, RAISED MY KIDS ALONE, MOVED TO COLORADO, MARRIED A COUPLE
MORE TIMES AND THEN FINALLY MARRIED KENNY.
KENNY WAS A STABILIZING FORCE IN MY LIFE AND TAUGHT ME THAT I WAS A
WORTHY PERSON, BOUGHT ME A HOME AND GAVE ME STABILITY THUS OPENING THE WAY FOR
ME TO BE THE WOMAN I AM TODAY.
WHEN I WAS
YOUNG, CHURCH WAS MY REFUGE. FOLLOWING
MY FIRST DIVORCE, CHURCH WAS FORGOTTEN.
I DID SEND THE KIDS, BUT I DID NOT GO.
WHILE I DID NOT GO TO CHURCH, I NEVER TURNED MY BACK ON GOD. HE WAS ALWAYS THERE AND SOME TIMES IN MY
DARKEST HOURS HE WAS THE ONLY FRIEND I HAD.
I THANK HIM THAT HE WAS A BETTER FRIEND TO ME THAN I WAS TO HIM. THERE ARE PARTS OF MY LIFE THAT I HAVE NEVER
TALKED ABOUT AND NEVER WILL, BUT I STAND BEFORE YOU NOW, A WOMAN MADE OF THOSE
PARTS. I HAVE BEEN POOR SO I HELP THE POOR. I HAVE SEEN DEATH , DYING, SICKNESS, AND
MENTAL ILLNESS, SO I HOLD MY HAND OUT TO THOSE WHO NEED ME. I HAVE BEEN JUDGED, SO I DO NOT JUDGE. I TRY TO LISTEN AND HEAR GOD TELL ME WHERE TO
GO NEXT, AND IT WORKS! SEVERAL YEARS AGO
HE LED THROUGH THE DOORS OF THIS CHURCH AND SEVERAL MONTHS BACK HE LED TERESA
AND I TO BECOME YOUR MODERATOR. DID YOU
THINK ALL THAT HAPPENED BY ACCIDENT? I
THINK NOT. I HOPE THAT IS NOT A DECISION
YOU REGRET. JUST STICK WITH ME HERE FOR
A LITTLE BIT.
OUR SISTER
CHURCH ACROSS TOWN IS TAKING A DIFFERENT APPROACH. THEY WANT TO TIGHTEN THINGS DOWN, CHANGE
THINGS, REWRITE THINGS AND I WISH THEM WELL ON THAT, BUT I THINK I GOT THIS FIGURED OUT.
GOD ALSO LED
ME TO VOLUNTEER AT HOSPICE. I WORK THE
ELEVENTH HOUR PROGRAM THERE. FOR THOSE
OF YOU NOT FAMILIAR WITH THE NEW HOSPICE RULES IT IS KNOWN AS SANGRE DE CRISTO
HOSPICE AND PALLIATIVE CARE. IT USED TO
BE THAT IF YOU WENT INTO HOSPICE YOU WOULD BE DEAD IN 6 MONTHS. NOT SO ANYMORE. THE PALLIATIVE CARE IS FOR PEOPLE WHO WANT TO
HANG ON TO LIFE, TAKE THEIR MEDICINE AND HOPEFULLY GET OUT OF THE HOSPICE
PROGRAM. THAT HAPPENS A LOT, BUT THERE
ARE PEOLE WHO ARE DEFINITELY DYING AND WELCOME THE JOURNEY WHILE OTHERS ARE NOT
QUITE SO EAGER. AS THEY NEAR THE END WE
REFER TO IT AS THE ELEVENTH HOUR, AND THAT IS MY SPEICALTY. I SET WITH THEM AS THEY NEAR THE NEXT
JOURNEY. SOMETIMES THEY HAVE FAMILY, BUT
NOT ALWAYS AND THOSE ARE THE ONES I PREFER.
THAT WAS THE CASE WITH A MAN NAMED BILL.
HIS FAMILY ARRIVED, BUT NOT UNTIL HE WAS GONE. HE TALKED BY PHONE WITH HIS MOTHER BEFORE HE
BEGAN HIS FINAL ASSENT. HE HAD A VERY
PEACEFUL CROSSING AND THAT IS WHAT WE STRIVE FOR.
SO I MEET PEOPLE WHO ARE TRANSITIONING FROM
THIS LIFE TO THE NEXT AND NOT ALWAYS IMMEDIATELY. ONE OF THESE IS SAMMIE . MY FIRST CONTACT WITH SAMMIE WAS 6 HOURS, DURING
WHICH HER FAMILY ATTENDED A REUNION.
SINCE SHE IS NEARING, BUT NOT QUITE THERE YET, WHE IS LUCID AND WELCOMES
COMPANY. SHE DOES HAVE A LARGE FAMILY,
BUT THEY ARE VERY BUSY WITH THEIR LIVES WHICH LEAVES HER CRAVING COMPANY. SHE IS A WOMAN WHO IS DEVOTED TO GOD AND SHE
BOASTS THAT SHE HAS A DIRECT LINE TO GOD.
SO I TOLD HER ABOUT MY CHURCH AND HOW WE WERE STRUGGLING TO KEEP OUR
DOORS OPEN. SHE SAID SHE WOULD PRAY FOR
US AND SHE HAS BEEN DOING THAT! SHE IS
VERY SIMPLE IN HER BELIEF AND HAS WRITTEN A SMALL BOOK WHICH HER DAUGHTER
PUBLISHED FOR HER. SHE SAID SHE WOKE UP
ONE NIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND WAS DRIVEN TO WRITE ALL THIS DOWN AS
IT CAME INTO HER HEAD. IT IS SO SIMPLE
THE WAY SAMMIE PUTS IT. I WANT TO READ
YOU 2 PARAGRAPHS AND THEN LEAVE THIS BOOK IN MAYFLOWER HALL FOR YOU.
PAGE 3, 2
PARAGAPHS.
I CAN FEEL A DIFFERENCE IN THE WHOLE ATTITUDE
OF OUR CHURCH SINCE SHE RATTLED THE HOT LINE TO GOD. I
THINK MOST OF US ARE JUST KIND OF PUTTING ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER AND
PLODDING DOWN THE ROAD. I KNOW I WAS
UNTIL SAMMIE WOKE ME UP. APATHY
ACCOMPLISHES NOTHING.
WHEN YOU GET
UP IN THE MORNING, DO YOU WONDER WHAT KIND OF DAY YOU WILL HAVE? OH,
CRAP, TRAFFIC IS GOING TO BE A BEAR! AND
IT IS. I KNOW THE GROCERY STORE IS GOING
TO HAVE LINES A MILE LONG. AND IT DOES. BET THERE WON’T BE 20 PEOPLE IN CHURCH
TODAY. AND THERE ISN’T.
SAMMIE SCOFFS AT ME.
SHE EXPLAINS IT THIS WAY. GOD
LOVES YOU. GOD WANTS YOU TO BE
HAPPY. IF FILLLING THE CHURCH WILL MAKE
YOU HAPPY, JUST TELL HIM AND HE WILL FILL THE CHURCH, BUT YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE
THAT IT WILL HAPPEN. GOD CAN NOT DO IT
BY HIMSELF. HE NEEDS ALL OF US TO MAKE
IT HAPPEN. GOD LIVES IN ALL OF US AND WE
HAVE GOT TO LET GOD SHOW THROUGH OUR FACES.
STRANGERS READ US. IF THEY SEE US
WITH OUR FACES DRAWN AND WORRIED, THEY TURN AWAY. SOME PEOPLE MIGHT CALL IT KARMA, THE POWER OF
POSITIVE THINKING, DUMB LUCK, BUT I HAVE FOUND THAT IF I HOLD REAL STILL, THE
ANSWER AND THE ACTION SEEM TO POP IN MY HEAD.
AND IF I DO NOT QUESTION, BUT JUST DO WHAT THAT LITTLE VOICE (FOR WANT
OF A BETTER WORD) TELLS ME, I FIND MYSELF WHERE I BELONG, DOING WHAT I SHOULD
BE DOING.
WHAT I WANT
US TO DO IS PRACTICE WHAT SAMMIE PREACHES!
GOD IS LOVE AND HE WANTS US HAPPY.
HE WANTS THIS CHURCH TO FLOURISH.
HE WANTS KIDS IN THE PEWS AND MONEY IN THE COFFER. HE DOESN’T JUST WANT US TO EXIST. HE WANTS US TO THRIVE! HE WANTS US OUT IN THE WORLD HELPING
PEOPLE. REMEMBER THE SONG “THIS LITTLE
LIGHT OF MINE?” I’M GONNA LET IT
SHINE. AND “AS YOU HAVE DONE THIS TO THE LEAST OF
THESE, MY BROTHER, YOU HAVE DONE IT TO ME.”
“IF YOU HAVE THE FAITH THE SIZE OF A MUSTARD SEED, YOU CAN SAY “MOVE” TO
THE MOUNTAIN AND IT WILL MOVE”
I SAW WHAT
HAPPENED WITH JOEY. I KNOW WE CAN MAKE
MIRACLES HAPPEN. I SEE IT EVERY DAY WHEN
I SEE A HUNGRY CHILD FED. I SEE IT WHEN
THE TRUNK OF MY CAR, WHICH IS FILLED BY TOWNSPEOPLE, IS EMPTIED AT LOS POBRES. OUR CHURCH IS A WORK OF ART AND WE ARE THE
CARETAKERS OF THAT ART. LET US TRY AN
EXPERIMENT FOR JUST ONE WEEK. WHEN YOU GO TO BED EACH NIGHT, TURN ALL OF YOUR
CARES OVER TO GOD. WHEN THEY ARE TURNED
OVER TO HIM, THEY ARE NO LONGER YOUR CONCERNS.
THANK HIM FOR ALL HE IS GOING TO DO BOTH IN YOUR LIFE AND IN OUR
CHURCH. THANK HIM FOR BRINGING NEW
PEOPLE TO OUR CHURCH. THANK HIM FOR
GIVING YOU WISDOM AND THE WORDS TO SPREAD HIS GOSPEL. DO NOT WONDER IF HE WILL, BUT RATHER ASSUME
HE IS ALREADY ON IT. THEN SMILE AT
YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR, CRAWL IN YOUR BED AND GO TO SLEEP! IT IS NOW IN GODS HANDS!
1 comment:
Lovely. Sounds as if the struggles of First Congregation go on and on. Sounds like you and Teresa and really working to make a difference.......Miss you guys....
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