I have spent my whole life searching for something. Always looking for the outfit that would make me beautiful, the meal that would satisfy me, the car I would love to drive, and clear down to searching for the man that would make me complete. Some of those things I actually found, but no longer have them. I do the looking back and regretting a lot, but it does not seem to do any good. Then I found this picture on facebook and it pretty well sums it up.
I have the big house. I have the car. I have more clothes then I will ever wear, eat what I want when I want. I had the man who made me feel complete for 20 years. Now I am alone and I have the perfect opportunity to find myself. It is time to deal with that little girl on Strong Street, the battered wife, the neglectful mother, the absent sister, and the wayward daughter.
Many years ago I put all my emotions in a closet and now I find that I would like to take them out, examine them, forgive myself and move on. I suppose life itself is built on a learning curve and I am just grateful to have stayed on this spinning ball long enough to understand this.
I can not save the world. I can not even save one person, but I can save myself. Maybe some day there will be room in my life for another man, but it is not now. I am going to look at myself in the mirror and not see wrinkles and scars. I am going to see a kind, loving woman who wants to save the world, but I am going to start with myself. This pretty much sums it up! (click blue)
Wish me luck!
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