I survived with my mind still intact and I must say, I did not have nearly as much trauma as October usually brings. Yesterday was the 54th year of my brother's passing. The month also marked my birthday, as well as 2 of my kids, my first wedding anniversary, my brothers birthday. Halloween is not the only thing in October for me, it just marks the end of a lot of bad stuff. But it is now time to move on!
I have one sister left and she called me last night. That was nice. I want to get down to see her and when the geese are gone I will be free to travel. At least I hope so.
I accept all the bad stuff and remember that first there was good stuff. I had a wonderful brother. I had a wonderful first husband and father to my children. A lot ended in October, but there were lots of bright beginnings. I have spent many years reliving a lot of garbage, but today is a new day. I have dealt with my demons and put them to rest. I shall spend the rest of my life counting blessings instead of recalling sadness. With that in mind, I am going to a big birthday party on November 9!
It will be Rose Torres 60 big ones! I do not like to go any where at night and sure do not want to go alone, but I am going to bite the big one and do this. It is times like this that I would like to have a man in my life that I could press into service, but such is not the case, so there you go! First there is going to be dinner and I do love to eat and my favorite stuff to eat is Mexican food made by people who have been doing it all their lives. Then there is going to be a dance! Kenny was not a man who had any rhythm in his body, so I have not danced since I married him in 1983. This could be humorous! I bet if John Tenorio were still around, he would go with me! If you are reading this and have any ideas feel free to call and tell me. Otherwise I am going to be out there dancing alone, but I am going!
So, back to the real world. Tomorrow is our craft fair at the church. Our kitchen will be open and I have made red and green chile, breakfast burritos, and lots of cookies for the bake table. I do not know what time it starts, but I have to be there at 8:30, I think.
So with my new mantra of "Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is far away, so live every day as if it were your last!" I shall wind this up, run through the shower and chase rainbows!
Peace!
I have one sister left and she called me last night. That was nice. I want to get down to see her and when the geese are gone I will be free to travel. At least I hope so.
I accept all the bad stuff and remember that first there was good stuff. I had a wonderful brother. I had a wonderful first husband and father to my children. A lot ended in October, but there were lots of bright beginnings. I have spent many years reliving a lot of garbage, but today is a new day. I have dealt with my demons and put them to rest. I shall spend the rest of my life counting blessings instead of recalling sadness. With that in mind, I am going to a big birthday party on November 9!
It will be Rose Torres 60 big ones! I do not like to go any where at night and sure do not want to go alone, but I am going to bite the big one and do this. It is times like this that I would like to have a man in my life that I could press into service, but such is not the case, so there you go! First there is going to be dinner and I do love to eat and my favorite stuff to eat is Mexican food made by people who have been doing it all their lives. Then there is going to be a dance! Kenny was not a man who had any rhythm in his body, so I have not danced since I married him in 1983. This could be humorous! I bet if John Tenorio were still around, he would go with me! If you are reading this and have any ideas feel free to call and tell me. Otherwise I am going to be out there dancing alone, but I am going!
So, back to the real world. Tomorrow is our craft fair at the church. Our kitchen will be open and I have made red and green chile, breakfast burritos, and lots of cookies for the bake table. I do not know what time it starts, but I have to be there at 8:30, I think.
So with my new mantra of "Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is far away, so live every day as if it were your last!" I shall wind this up, run through the shower and chase rainbows!
Peace!
