I woke up at 3:10 AM this morning missing my momma. I am not good with dates and have to consult a book when pressed to put a time, place and date on any given event. Seems like Bret was 3 or 4 years old when momma died and he is pushing 30 now. I know Kenny has been gone almost 20 years. And here I set!
I know God has a purpose for me, but I am not at all sure what it is! Covid has us so limited in our lives that my volunteer work is pretty much out the window and the church is closed more than it is open. Every where I go I wear my protective gear, race home and wash my hands and face. Pueblo County is now the hot spot for the virus. I have had my vaccination and am ready for my booster next week and the numbers just keep climbing.
It saddens me to see how little regard the populace has for us old people. When I do venture out it is usually to Lagreese and back. I hurry in with my list in my hand and grab what I need and scurry back to the car and home to my sanctuary. I used to meet a friend at Starbucks and have a Green Tea Frapaccino or Latte, but I now go through the drive thru alone. Life is not the same as it was 2 years ago. For Christmas last year I received a $100 Starbucks gift card from a dear friend . I have used it once.
Life is just easier living in the past. There is no present and the future looks like it is going to be Republicans and Democrats fighting over who can spend the most money and do the least good. The other countries seem to be pulling it together and controlling the spread of this virus, but we are so busy fighting about whether your rights supercede mine or vice versa. I just want to go to Kohls and buy a couple new towels and maybe a bra, but I am afraid to venture that far from home! And is Kohls still out there?
As the road before me gets shorter, the road behind me looks better. There was a time when we helped old ladies across the street and picked kittens up out of the gutter and took them home. There was a time when we gathered in the park for birthdays and played volleyball! There was a time when I got a mohawk hair cut and went to the Eastside Safeway and the "gang bangers" smiled at me and gave me a thumbs up. Not now. Safeway was torn down a couple years ago and I do not even know if Louie is still cutting hair because I never see his barber pole turning, but then again, I never get to town to check. Once a month I pick up my prescription at Blende Drug. The rest of the trips are one mile North to Lagreese and one mile South back home. Church is on Sunday, but it is not always open.
I do have a job taking supper to a man in town 3 evenings a week and that is nice. We play a game of checkers after he eats and then I hurry home to put the geese to bed. The cat is always glad to see me, but even she is on her downward spiral! And I have to be alert around her because she bites!
So it is almost 4:00 AM and I am on my second cup of coffee. Whoopie! I noticed yesterday that the tin shed has blown full of leaves so when the sun comes up I will go out and sweep them out into a pile and burn them. I mean if the powers that be are allowing burning today. If not I will sweep them out and let them pile up some where else.
Maybe I will make cinnamon rolls today. Maybe I won't. While I moan and groan about my lot in life you should know that it beats hell out of the alternative! And remember this: You can not sprinkle showers of happiness on other people without getting a few drops on yourself!
I heard that line of crap some where!
I got a doorbell and installed it just in case someone came by and I did not hear them knock, but Janet came and she said she rang it and I never heard it! $30 down the crapper on that one!
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