This is nothing new. When I weighed 98 pounds, I had a 29 inch waist. Since then I have gained 40 pounds and my waist is 36 inches. An hour glass figure was always something I longed for, but never achieved back in my younger days. Mother was always the practical one. She dismissed it as "So?" That did not seem to help much.
As I inch my way toward being an "octogenarian", I think I have finally come to grips with the fact that it really doesn't matter anymore. Back in high school it seemed to matter. Barbara was 36-24-36. The rest of the girls were similar, but found it amusing that I was 32-29-34. While they weighed in at higher numbers, I tipped the scales at 89 pounds. The boys found them fascinating; they found me strange. The "in girls" tittered when the boys entered our realm. While the girls seemed to accept me as I was, the boys were looking for boobs.
Irene had huge ones so she was a real hit. Martha found boys stupid and she would rather play the piano. I found boys strange creatures. Then there was that the phenomenon of the changing voice that boys had to contend with that proved embarrassing to them! One would be talking in a normal voice and then out would come a word in his little boy voice. We would always laugh, but I am sure it was hard on them as the "tiny boobs" thing was to me. Kids are cruel.
I started my high school years living with my grandmother and great grandmother, so by the time I got back to Nickerson, I entered high school as a Sophomore. My class mates from grade school had new friends and I was the outsider. We had a larger curriculum, and the teachers expected us to actually do our home work AND turn it in at the end of class or beginning if it was something we did at night. I had a Speech class and it was always torture for me to stand in front of a room full of people and "defend my viewpoint" on one subject or another. Algebra was like a foreign concept. History was boring. Chemistry was an accident waiting to happen in a beaker on my table. So I started skipping class in my Junior year and by my Senior year I was a secret drinker. I never graduated. I did, later in life get my GED and went to Business College where I graduated Magna cum laude which helped not one iota in the restaurant business since I was a cook or waitress and not the owner.
I have 5 kids and my body has changed, but the hour glass figure that I so longed for is still not a reality. I have developed a personality of sorts so, that is good. At least I have friends.
So I guess the moral of this blog is "God don't make junk!" It is not what is on the outside that matters. He will judge me by the content of my heart and the deeds I have done.
I sure hope that is how it happens, cause life sure does get tediuos!
